Dear Diary....

Dear diary..

I've been writing for the past few month. my mind is blank & empty. what else I'm suppose to do? what else should i do? i don't know if this smile can be consider as smiling. i don't know if this laugh can be consider as laughing. i don't know if this happy face of mine can be consider as happiness. i don't know how far should i go... i guess i'll never know what will happen..

Dear diary..

How can i know that i'm in love with someone? how can i know that i already forget the pass? how can i ensure that there is someone for me? who love me without no doubt. who doesn't care bout my appearance? how can i ensure that this guy is for me? how can i know that he love me for real?

Dear diary..

Please hold him when i'm not around. please ensure that he will be fine..although he left me and make me cried.. please hold him when he was crying.. please hold him when he need someone to talk too.. please hold him when he was sick.. please hold him..... cause i know his not mine anymore....

Dear Diary..

I've been going out lately. i started to forget bout my past, my history. i started to breath again. i see the sun shine again. i see the laugh of my friends. i see the tears of my family. i see the sadness through the mirror. is it me? is the poor girl inside the mirror is me? how far i've been lookin' like this? there's no smile, only tears.. break the mirror, come out ME..